Sunday nights are really hard for Olivia. The anxiety of Monday treatments start to take over. She’s tells me she doesn’t want to go. She doesn’t want to do it. She cries. She gets angry. She pleads with God. Last night was no different.
As we snuggled in bed, I was trying to calm her down, she said to me, “mommy I know what I want for my birthday.” Tentatively listening and giving her my full attention she told me that the only thing she wants is to not have cancer anymore. She told me she would give up all of her clothes, toys and even her dogs that she loves so much to just not have cancer anymore. I told her I pray every day that her cancer stays gone forever. I told her that she has more strength and courage than she know because even when she doesn’t want to go to clinic, she still finds a way to push herself to do it.
She didn’t have a good night sleep. She woke up crying and mad. I held her tight and reassured her all would be ok and reminded her that a day in clinic is better than on overnight at the hospital. She knows this and my words didn’t bring her the comfort I hoped.
Today is 31/66, still such a long round ahead for her. I wish this far into treatment it would be easier for her but it’s not.
“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
Kevin Reardon Christina Louise Meyers
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First posted on the OliviaStrong Facebook page.