I’m asked multiple times a day from friends how I’m doing. I give a standard response that I’m just taking it day by day.
…The truth is I feel like I’m dying inside.
- I feel helpless.
- I scream when I’m alone in my car.
- I cry a lot. But not to much around Olivia because she doesn’t like seeing me cry.
- I feel sick to my stomach all the time.
- I don’t have an appetite but eat because I know I have to.
- My heart hurts.
- I overthink and play different scenarios in my head.
- I have to force myself to not read everything about this fucking cancer that’s on the internet.
I don’t know what’s next for her or our family but I pray for her daily. I pray for complete healing. I pray for her strength. I pray for Kevin’s strength to get both us of through this.
~Christie
First posted on the OliviaStrong Facebook page.